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Once upon so many times there lived a girl.
Who was so dull nobody cared much about her.
Her face was dull: nobody would look at her twice on the streets.
Her life was dull: her future is planned, condemned, unchangeable.
Until one day...
But what happens in this story is... that "one day" never arrives.
Name: Lee Yee Hueh
Age: Sixteen
Location: Singapore, River valley High School
Interests: Big Bang, cute guys, korean drama and soap opera, and the list goes on
More: if you wanna know more just read my blog...
Even though I can see the end, it's still only you
my cousin moved away. new location? somewhere in aljunied. so far!!! she said she chose that room (note: she rented a room, not a full apartment) because it came with a wardrobe. o.O
i didn't sleep well yesterday night. yeaterday i bought the first ever personal laptop in my life. and spent like, 2000 bucks? man, i'm so guilty. do i really need to spend so much on that?
and according to my father, the comp is sponsored by my grandpa.
i owe him so much.
while i knitted the first part of yesterday's night away, i thought of how i'm gonna plan my life.
i mean, i was really all set for a i-don't-give-a-damn-so-long-as-i'm-happy kind of life. get into the media business, perhaps get famous, or get some easy job and spend the rest of my life in blissful slackiness.
and now i suddenly owe my grandpa 2000 bucks.
and i find myself looking at the hardcore direction in life.
be one of the best students, ace the a levels, get a university scholarship, get a money earning job and work like hell for the rest of my life.
way out? disappoint my grand-/parents or brainwash myself into LOVING writing reports, and analysing the economy.
what a wonderful life.
i felt like killing myself this morning. why the rush to buy a computer yesterday when actually we CAN borrow one from the school? FUCK.
at least mom accepted the fact that what is bought is bought and cannot be returned for money. i was so prepared to get a spanking from her.
dad told me to refrain from using my new vaio for entertainment activities.
then i thought, since i'm going to work hard like crazy anyway, why refrain from some entertainment?
of course, i shall place study in priority.... for the sake of my grandpa, my mother, and perhaps, my dad.
ok, AND my dad.
so i concluded, i'm going to be a university scholar(so i can study for free) and be a money tree. (come to think of it, it's not that bad, because with money i can buy some good entertainment... and happiness)
and that vaio is gonna last until i graduate from the university (unless someone is kind enough to give me another one for free).
ps. i'm gonna take up a job when i come back. i promise.
Saturday, October 31, 2009\\Big Bang - Let Me Hear Your Voice Eng Sub [MV] [HD]
!!!!
Wednesday, October 28, 2009\\声をきかせて
\\BIGBANG NEW SINGLE TVCM
new single!!!
Thursday, October 22, 2009\\Another TOP(Big Bang)'s Skill(Oct 21, 2009)
OMG he's sooooooooooooooooo shuai!!!!
Thursday, October 15, 2009\\Taeyang M/V Where U At [HD]
ooh! no time to listen to it... next time!
Saturday, October 10, 2009\\LG Chocolate Phone CF (30s)- f(x)
\\[30']SNSD @ New Chocolate Phone CF
Friday, October 9, 2009\\I Hate My Life…
I'm a different-from-others-and-very-troubled-teen.
By the way, just finished the biomedical papers today and there's only CID left… and friends, if you wanna go out with me, forget it. My mom just confirmed with me I that I go out with no one and stay meekly at home… Any stepping-out-of-the-door will be going to school or shopping with her… Or you all can come to my house for lunch, and we'll watch Aliens in the Attic or something like that. My mom insists on me saving up for the trip.
Recently I'm sort of banned from the comp, whenever the males are at home (namely the brother and the father), I'm not supposed to play games since my brother can't… like, you can't eat ice cream while your brother has a fever? That kind of thing.
IKEA hasn't reply yet. I've this feeling that I'm rejected… bad thing is they don't email to all the rejects and tell them "hi, you are rejected". So for know I have to keep waiting and waiting and waiting.
The past videos I posted seem to have disappeared. I thought of putting them back, but decided to forget about it: who's watching it anyway?
I'm really anticipating the trip… Counting down!
PS. Amber from f(x) is really hot! It's the first time I feel so excited over a girl!!! Maybe it's because of the song, or her hairstyle, or the fact that she raps.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009\\Down, Down, Down
Completed two other papers today: Mathematics paper II and Chinese Literature. I didn't actually study for them… just copied the 小说源流(development of Chinese novels, or whatever you call it), brought it to school and mug with friends. And for math I just scanned through the notes. As a result I completely forgot how to figure out the inter quartile range. I don't know now either, since I've recycled all my math notes and I'm too lazy to check the textbooks. Chinese literature sucked, let's hope Allan Ho marks leniently.
OMG, Amber from f(x) is just too hot.
Rebecca said she watched family outing and intimate note already… aw… can't wait for the exams to end so I can youtube in peace!!!
Tuesday, October 6, 2009\\The romantic story: i believe you
i read pinning's blog today and got the motivation to read the JC love story again... and damn!!! IT'S SO SWEEEET!!! especially the secret message! though i think i get the ending of the story already... sigh...
anyway, people who are interested in the story can go read:
"I’m sorrie if I say anything wrong… u will still come for the appointment, won’t u?" "Let me fetch you on that day, okie?" "Only you can help yourself. come on, reply a yes…" "Vent your thoughts to others please… it’s the only way out." "Ease your illusions! let me help…" "You’ve gotta go for it!" "Only you… yourself can help yourself…" "Understanding yourself is most important…"
Not the one in Indonesia… (By the way, people, please donate generously whenever you pass by fund-raisers okay? They need it!) The family living below is renovating their house (I guess), so all day long you can feel the floor vibrating away and then there's this deafening buzz of the drill… irritating yes, but we can't help it.
Just like what my mother commented half a minute ago: if this persists any longer we'll get deaf. I so agree. Let's hope they finish renovating as soon as possible and we all get some peace.
My mom agreed to let me work part time at IKEA!!! Woohoo! Actually I haven't apply/audition yet… but I think it'll be sometime soon, I'll be working for four weeks only. Hope that they will let me continue after the holidays too…
Monday, October 5, 2009\\f(x)(에프엑스)_LA chA TA(라차타)_뮤직비디오(MusicVideo)
\\f(x)(에프엑스)_티져무비(Teaser Movie)
OMG AMBER IS SO HOT!!!
\\IRIS - TOP Version Teaser
OMG i wanna watch!!! (only the top part)
\\Dead Cat
Like what I told my mom, if what I thought I answered correct is correct, and what I think I answered wrong is wrong, I may just pass.
So goes my chemistry. Sigh, I feel sad for the teachers who wasted their time teaching me, the chemistry idiot. :D
And Chinese paper one is down too! So altogether it's 6 papers down and seven more to go. And to think that 3 papers went down just today….
I'm feeling slack already. China studies and chemistry gone, the difficult math paper II gone… all that's left to mug is biology…
Going off to Malaysia later for mid-autumn!!!
Maths paper II is down already… and I screwed like, more than half of the questions. Haha.
It didn't matter if I study or not, integration and trigonometry is not my cup of tea anyway.
And I have no idea what to study for the coming chemistry papers!!! Whatever, I won't have enough time…
Mum made pizza today, mmmm! I love thin crust Hawaiian.
China Studies down. Language arts paper one down. 11 more papers to go. The teachers will not be doing file checking or any other crap right? Good… I can recycle all of my worksheets… Wee! Maybe not all…
And, for those who decide to burn theirs, please don't do it… recycle them! 造福人间，又不会危害阴间。:D
Sigh… there's still so much to revise… Looking at the mountains of note makes me sick.
Should I just heck care then slack all the way through?
I've considered this important question for ages… and decided that money is too good. I shall work a little for it.
Speaking about money… Anybody got a good part-time job to recommend? I'm in need of cash!!! I've considered KFC and Mac… but… seriously, last time I went to Tiong's KFC and almost fainted from the stink (and I saw a cockroach nymph too)!!!
I dreamt I was a ninja, I dreamt I was a zombie slayer. I dreamt I could fly, and I had a vampire as a lover.
Here goes the stupid attempt of blogging in rhyme… I shall continue in normal English…
My dreams repeat. Some carry on like a drama series…
The craziest dream: all of them! The most disturbing dream: bugs bunny tried to kill me (with a gigantic pin… you know… the one he always fishes out from his back?) The most horrible dream: I dreamt that all my primary school's classmates turn into zombies and I had to slay them… there's also another dream where I entered a haunted house… the sweetest dream: I dreamt I had a lover!!! He hugged me from the back~ The save-the-world dream: there was a flood coming and I had to warn all the people living in the hdb flat… the most Hong Kong drama dream: I had to take care of my down with illness father, then I fell in love with his doctor… who was my dad's love rival (?) The BIG BANG DREAM: I dreamt I was a singer and performed on stage with big bang!!! The Harry Potter dream: I was crazy over HP once… then I dreamt I became a reporter… to interview Daniel racliff The most emo dream: I dreamt I stuck two tiny bombs the size of pills onto my head… and they exploded… then I felt myself slowly dying away… then I asked myself: "is this how death felt like?" The repeated dream: I was sitting on a wheeled armchair and sliding on a dark corridor … at the end of the corridor lived an old woman… and a vampire!!! And there was this dream that has a repeating scene… I ran up the stairs and bumped into an old woman who immediately died from shock… every time this scene repeats, I knew she would die… so I try to stop or save her… but every time I failed… in the end… she didn't die but fished out a knife from her plastic bag and killed me…
I had loads of other adventurous and dramatic dreams… only I can't remember… shit! There were two I especially loved! I remember I had a diary to record what happened in that two dreams… should be about cute guys plus adventure… wait till I find the stupid book…
You said I shouldn't steal. I never stole from shops. I stole from the internet.
You said I shouldn't wear FBT or shorts that are too short. I wear them every once in a while.
You said I should pin my hair up. I let them down pass my brows.
You said I should eat in school. I hadn't dined in the canteen since forever.
You said I shouldn't play computer games. I'm a facebook game addict.
You said MSN is wrong. I have over a hundred contacts in my account.
You said blogging is wrong. Here I am, posting like you've never said it before.
You said borrowing money from other people is wrong. I don't see how it is morally incorrect.
You said writing on my hands is wrong. I, again, don't see how it makes me a bad person.
You said I should stop eating durians when I barely had one. I hated you for that.
You said I should not wear a jacket. Reason: You yourself was sweating, thus inferring that I'm gonna die of dehydration if I do so. In fact, the reason why I put on a jacket is because I felt cold.
You said facebooking is wrong. AND I JUST DON'T SEE HOW IT GOES AGAINST ANY OF THE MORAL VALUES I UPHOLD.
You said posting my pictures on the internet is wrong. If so, the whole world might as well go to hell because we are all terrible sinners in one way or another.
You said I shouldn't have a boyfriend until I have a job and he has a job and earned enough money to give me a good life. You yourself married a man ten years older then you are barely twenty.
You said the shirt was too old for me, only to realize that I'm already sixteen the minute after.
You said entering the media business puts me at risk of committing a great sin. You don't realize it's not going to make me change my mind to become a teacher, I might as well die.
You said the world is coming to an end next year. Why are you stopping me from making myself happy?
The holidays have ended and I haven't finished all my holiday homework yet… Chinese literature… Wait… why is it always Allan Ho?! I have to say that his lessons are the most fun, but his homework is also the most tedious… Sigh… Ok, two of his homework not started yet…
And there's a Chinese composition due tomorrow…
Actually… when you look at it again, there's not much… Only thing: I'M STILL IN THE HOLIDAY MOOD!!! I. Don't. Feel. Like. Touching. Any. Of. These. TERRIBLE AND HORRIBLE HOMEWORK!!! TO HELL WITH THEM!!!
There was a change of plans: we're not going back to Malaysia after all. Reason: we haven't finished our homework… T.T
We have this hope of going to city square to shop tomorrow… (It all depends… maybe I decided to slack tonight and sleep early… or get crazy and finish all my holiday homework in one night)
Still stuck on the chemistry paper… and had a lot more to go… Man! Why is Chinese literature so difficult??!! Should I act all innocent and pretend I forgot to do the "假作真时真亦假" question? Should I give up chemistry, and move on to something easier? Or should I just don't give a damn and tell my mom I finished them all already?
I tried frying gamjajeon today again. Turns out that the problem yesterday was really because I did not use a non-stick pan… I used too much oil today (wasn't more than a spoonful), but the pancakes are otherwise very nice. (And I was literally sweating my head off)
One more day before the holiday ends… I'm looking forward to the yearend break already!!!
Today we had a class cip (beach cleaning) at east coast park…
The cleaning part was so tiring! I was totally soaked in sweat at the end of it… thankfully miss khang treated us to drinks at the macdonalds there… we love you! Miss khang!!!
Then before we left we had a go at the toy machines (god knows what they are really called) around that area.
Yeejia was trying to grab this tatty bear sitting in the middle of the machine… we are like "oh! It's on!... (then) oops!!! Shit!!" the whole way through. they even applied physics to how to get the bear out of the machine. apparently this tatty bear love the machine very much and refused to be picked up by the claw-thingie… we had a lot of fun… but there's still disappointment when we can't get it out after several tries…
Nevermind yeejia! Next year I'll buy a hug-size tatty bear for you!!! (then you can bring it to ecp and suan the stubborn tatty bear(most probably a fake).
I was too greedy… the rice and the soup should be enough already.
Then I had to add in the pancakes… what the hell am I thinking?
First there aren't any non-stick pans. Second, frying pancakes or omelets with the wok will be suicide for noobshit like me. Third, there's no mom around to guide me when I go wrong.
So why can't I stick to one soup for dinner?
Damn me.
And the soup.
At first it was alright. The sweet corn and potatoes are boiling okay, except they kept running out of water (apparently I had too large a fire). Then I added the tomatoes and went on to the pancakes. Guess what?
Water ran out again and when I checked the pot an hour later, burnt, completely. The whole pot of soup ruined.
Maan… thank god my dad arrived just in time to clean up the mess for me… trying to make me feel better, he even tried the cakes I fried (50% burnt, and the other half not cooked)
I have this thought in mind to try again tomorrow… (I meant the soup) but we're going back to Malaysia to visit my grandma in the hospital…
Lesson learnt? Don't bother about cooking unless others tell you to. Or it will be damn embarrassing, even though only you and your dad saw it.
Thursday, September 3, 2009\\Life’s Hard… AND DAMN IT DOESN’T HAVE TO BE SO!!!
Gah…
I reached home at about four something and had a shower… Dinner was good… bitter gourd with eggs and canned beans.
But after that?
I told myself I'm doomed, because I have to turn in tons of homework by tomorrow. And I spent the next three hours… on what?
Naw, not youtube.
The entire desk (along with my beloved computer) is shifted out into the living room, all the wires unplugged and tangled.
My mom basically shifted the furniture around the house all by herself this morning (macho mum!) so that we don't have to hurry like crazy if the cousin suddenly appears and ready to "plonk" onto his prepared bed… Hospitable huh?
Only thing: the furniture had to be shifted again, since my table just can't fit into the living room. So we shuffled the tables about two times. First time? I struggled with mum with all the heavy tables (phew) and arranged the computer wires. Then I had to clear out half of my shelves to make more room for my sis's books, to make more room for our bedroom. Then I sat down for homework (finally), and my dad came home.
We discussed again and decided my new table is just too long. We shifted the furniture AGAIN (and had to reposition the two computers, by my dad of course, I'm doing my bio on the dining table). Alas, the "new new" table fits perfectly into it's confined space in the living room. SIGH…
It turned out that my cousin will be coming tomorrow instead. (GRR….)
Never mind! Being prepared is good! Only I have to prepare myself for another sleepless night too…
PS: my new roommate was forced to shift her laptop into the living room as well, despite the fact that we do have enough room for her laptop in our bedroom. Apparently my dad likes to intrude on everyone's privacy, including another adult's.
Wednesday, September 2, 2009\\Farewell, my privacy (as in the comp usage la!)
Today is the last day this computer (oh, my beloved) is staying in my bedroom…
They said it's because my other cousin is moving in, and my cousin had to make space for him by shifting INTO MY ROOM (me and sister's room).
And all the desks, including the computer (oh, my beloved) shall have to go to make way for a female adult.
Sigh…
But I think they have a motive behind this.
My parents are not that stupid to not notice that I had abused my privileges of having a computer in my private room, by indulging on youtube and facebook and perhaps online games…
So I think they wanted to shift my workspace out so they can watch over me…
Gah…
And the part about one more guy in the house? I'm not so sure yet… I bet he just comes to sleep… that's all…
I'll miss you, my computer (it's actually a shared one, but since it moved into my room, I basically dominated the use of it… other than the occasional visits from my brother…) oh my beloved!
PS: damn I'll miss "family outing"! Wait till I get my own laptop next year!!! Hrng!
This is the first time in I-dunno-how-many months I've had an afternoon nap.
I came home, ate (lunch was vegetarian chicken rice and broccoli), bathed, then heck-caring about my still-wet hair, fell asleep after finishing a comic book. Damn shiok… This is life, man! I bet I had a dream, but I forgot what it was about. Pity…
Dinner was beetroot soup (all soup, with one piece of potato… hoho), three mouthfuls of toufu with garlic, and two mouthfuls of rice. Dessert was supposed to be canned longan… But I happen to have swollen gums and ulcer in the mouth… no heaty food! So it got replaced by a cup of apple cider vinegar with honey (throat burning… I can even feel it in my stomach…. *shudder* I should have spammed the honey)
I plan to go back to sleep… as soon as possible. But it happens that I have a computer on… so… (sigh)
OMG today we went to watch "up" and damn it's so nice!!!
*WARNING: SPOILERS*
I laughed and cried throughout the show… Ok, I cried only twice: once when the wife died; another time when Carl got to read her last words for him… The first, it was so sad… The second, it was so romantic and touching…
And I love Dug!!! He's so cute!!! Oh my, if only I had a dog like that!
And somehow I think the young Carl looks VERY like Gary Chaw… really!
*END OF SPOILERS*
Then throughout the movie there's this little boy behind me who kept talking to his mom and spoiling the entire atmosphere. Damn…
Well, today I went to HC to play basketball with facils and WOW it's fun! Haha.
Tomorrow I'll have to go to this SAP talk thing at yishun jc and have yet to figure out where the hell it is and how am I supposed to get to bugis from there…
Nevermind, I shall meet up with yeejia…
I realized a few things…
I really love Big Bang: I can't stop smiling in awe at them!!! Even thinking of them makes me drool!
I'm becoming a bimbo: symptoms include – spamming deodorant when I think I'm stinky, putting on nail varnish, 24/7 keep worrying about my fringe that never looks neat, and preparing clothes in advance. (you should have seen me prepare: I went in and out of my room just to try on some combinations, and had to change my pants three times, get advice from my mom, then get my clothes for tomorrow settled)
I'm a hopeless slacker: although it's a weekend, there are loads and loads of homework for me to finish and I just can't get myself to start on any of them… I'm too obsessed with big bang and youtube!!!
I'm not remorseful though… I'm actually happy about it! WOO…
OMG this is so funny! especially all the guys starting to grovel at yoona and try to please her... and watch them sing! haha. AND THERE"S TOP! hey, that part's not funny at all, should put in the part about them catching fish for breakfast...
OMG, Dae Sung just got into a car accident! This is such a shock… I got the article from allkpop.com:
After breaking the news earlier about Big Bang's Daesung being injured in a car accident, it appears although his condition isn't that good right now, he's not in any serious danger at the moment. But definitely not fit for work. According to YG Entertainment, "Big Bang's Daesung has suffered a nose fracture and this was the same part that he had injured when he was little. There's also some alignment problem with Daesung's spinal cord although that will clear up by itself in about 4 weeks time. Other that that, Daesung also suffered superficial injuries on his face and arms. His arm which was reported to be injured earlier on, was a non-issue after check-up." YG explained what happened, "Daesung was on his way back home from the site of the filming location of Family Outing at around 4. While cruising along the highway near Pyeongtaek, Gyeonggi province, there was a lot of water accumulated on the road because of heavy rain, which caused the vehicle to skid and crash onto the divider. Daesung was sitting beside the driver (his manager), while his coordinator sat behind." Daesung's manager suffered superficial injuries on his hands and a leg injury and will receive further treatment in Seoul. The coordinator suffered severe bleeding on the leg but luckily there was no damage to the nerves, and will be fine after an operation. Daesung and his manager will return to Seoul for further treatment while the coordinator will go through an operation tonight because of her severe injuries. YG Entertainment has announced that Daesung will require 4 - 6 weeks of recuperation time and will not be taking part in anything for the next month or so. He will also miss the Shouting musical which starts on 12th August (till 23rd), tomorrow. At this juncture, we wish Daesung, his manager and coordinator a speedy recovery.
I hope he really gets well soon! Big bang is incomplete without him…
Monday, August 10, 2009\\And It Starts ALL OVER AGAIN
Shit.
It's like, repeating.
Me, wasting my time away on youtube, all the while knowing every second that passed will lead me nearer to doom. But there's no brakes, no sign of stopping, until the very last minute.
Then I struggle. To finish, to accomplish what everyone took a month to finish, within a night.
I took a few minutes of power nap, but didn't manage to rest well, since there's this constant dread stuck in my chest that time is flying by and I'll not be able to complete on time if I idled. I was feeling so nauseous I lay on my bed for a few minutes, and then my phone's alarm rang. The shock cleared my head at first, and then I felt sick again. In the end, I used 风油,applying it to my temples and under my nose… It worked! At least, until now it still worked. I shall never hate 风油 ever again.
If I die from lack of sleep it's entirely my fault (if not the inventors of the internet are responsible). I've been trying to complete it (anyone who knows me enough knows what "it" is) for like, over a month… and I'm still struggling… I can die!
Nonetheless… I shall not put too much stress on myself. Therefore I'm now taking a break (ironically I've been "taking breaks" since forever). Made myself a huge mug of mocha: Darlie snoopy mug + warm water from the flask + one packet of instant Ipoh white coffee mix + one packet of Milo 3in1 mix = mmm…
*Sucks in a big, big breath*
Fighting! Gambatte! Jia You! I can do it!
Anyway, I was slacking on Facebook when yeejia uploaded today's pictures (she brought her dear, dear camera today and we spent a hell of a time cam-whoring). Then, minutes later, a vigorous war of comments came up and muahaha, currently the about-one-hour-old album has 49 photo comments already! Congrats, congrats…
Finished the mug of mocha and starts to feel… Shit, my mouth really reeks (at least, I feel so unfresh in the mouth)… That's why I don't often drink Milo and coffee outside… I scared I will scare people off with my stink.
(Goes and drinks a cup of plain water) (Comes back… I've read it somewhere that caffeine causes water loss in the body… hmm)
Anyway, I was gonna say that I'm starting to feel a bit light-headed and tight in the chest… turning around, the bed looks so damn inviting… yet, I swear to anyone on Earth and out of, that I WILL finish the damned first draft by tomorrow 6.00am and send it in so I won't fail my CID. I've made and broke too many promises, so let's hope I really put what I swore into action.
Since it's coffee break, let's talk about something else… Like… TOP's acting in a movie that's coming soon! It's called "Iris", mainly about assassins and stuff… I've posted the trailer on the blog already! He's the guy who's supposed to kill the main character, so there are a lot of shooting scenes (nosebleed).
Oh yeah, and thanks to Joanna, I've managed to watch yet another parody done by big bang. It's based loosely on the Korean drama "Beethoven's Virus", but sadly I never watched that show before. Heck care! I realized that TOP is always the main guy in the parodies, perhaps he's the most man… And it's my second time seeing seung ri dressing up as a girl, and the second time I see dae sung dressed up as a female. I used the word "female" because his characters in this parody are quite… old? Haha I loved the dog scene the best, though it's quite short.
I was ready to spam other big bang info I found out recently but, that's enough, let's move on.
I lost my thumb drive again; this one was not in my ownership for more than a month, then poof! It's gone. Shit. Now I have to save up for another one because it's not nice to ask my parents for another one. And I already had a "hand phone memory card" on the desire list, not to mention the girl guides cookies I have to pay up for next week. Twenty bucks per week is not much really, considering the fact that I'm some sort of a shopaholic. Fortunately, I don't eat in school, which means my twenty bucks is almost always unspent at the end of the week.
Let's see… Twenty bucks saved in this week will pay for the cookies… Then I'll spend another two weeks saving up for the new thumb drive. Meanwhile I shall go back to Malaysia and retrieve my old 2GB, and try spending my RM on a wallet (the old one needs replacing). Then I have one more week before the September holidays to save enough cash for the memory card. (Assuming there are no emergencies when I need to pay for something)
Since I'll be almost bankrupt till next term, I decided to try getting all free resources I can get. And I'm desperate enough to upload my haiku onto IVLE just in case the prize for the competition (if there's one) is something valueable). But I go onto IVLE and discover that somebody is more desperate than me. I don't know if he's despo or crazy or just plain bored, Jozhi uploaded about forty haikus on the forum. Geez… So in the end I spammed the forum a bit…
Raspberry ripple ice cream tastes like cough syrup. I should have taken the durian.
Well, it's been ages since I last updated, so I shall just blog for a while…
Just looked at my watch and to my horror I found it's third of august today and it's 6.53PM!!! I've wasted my whole day away on this stupid computer watching UP trailers (it's really cute!!! RUSSELL is SOOOOOOO CUTE!) AND I haven't even completed anything yet.
If I'm a Christian I would ask, why did god create schools and homework in the first place if he meant well for all mankind? THIS IS NOT WELL! every day of my life I'm wasting half of it in a strict and dull place called a school and being tortured by sinister adults called teachers(well, there are a few exceptions, like allan ho, chen wan shi and mr ang… and of course ma'am) and suffocating under the stress of horrible missions called homework and projects and presentations. Argh! And when I get out of this hell I'll be right in another where I have to sit in front of the computer all day coming up with nonsensical reports and presentations and new ideas for new crap projects. Then until I marry a man (most likely a colleague), and have children who shall suffer the same fate I have been through. What's in life really? (Now this is a great excuse for suicide, but unfortunately in Singapore you don't even hold legal rights over your own life, suicide is against the law. Ha. Ha.)
And thinking of life I think back to my family, which is not an issue I plan to blog about today…
And come to think of it raspberry ripple ice cream really sucks like hell.
I think I'll continue struggling with my homework… back to hell…
This is a reply to the tags on the tagboard… since passer-by and Passer-by and Rebecca and Clarence made a comment about my previous post, it got me on a dream discussion, which is quite long, so I just place it into a post instead.
Hmm… haha, Passer-by suggested the idea of dreams carrying meanings and messages in them. OMG you sound so grandma-ish! I don't understand dreams, but if they carried a meaning with them my life is really drama.
For example, when I was about three I had this nightmare about bugs bunny trying to kill me with a giant pin (size of a small pencil). Try decoding that.
Rebecca and passer-by think my dream makes sense… objection! Refer to the age gap. And thinking of illogical dreams… I once dreamt that I was running up the stairs, and banged into an old lady who immediately died from the impact (whoops…). And the scene repeats itself again and again. Don't try to see the logic here, 'cause there's none. Nonetheless, my dreams almost always come with a nice story plot, logic or not.
Clarence says my dream is super long… I stated that the reason so is because it's being put into words. And most part of the story is not acted out in the dream, it just came to me and I understood them while the dream is going on. The actual action part? Only the pushing of the wheelchair, the computer room, the reading, the exchange of glances, the "father!" exclamation, the cutting of pineapples, and the eating of pineapples.
I spent half an hour describing last night's dream and updated another post on my unfinished report, my love for sleeping, and my new thumb drive.
And in the end? To find the dream diary entry gone, replaced by the "another post".
That's the reason I hate updating using word, but there's a problem with blogger now and I've problems posting already.
GRR.
Ok, I'll try to repeat the story again.
I dreamt I was a girl pushing this sick man into a hospital. We went to this computer room and read this announcement website that has advice for the patients (individually) from the advisory committee of the hospital (similar to those shareholders in a company type of thing).
Turned out that the man I'm pushing around used to work in the hospital and during that time he and his colleague fought over a girl they both loved. He got the girl and now he's sick, needing help from the colleague, who still worked in the hospital. (Situations like the love fight and the need for help are not explained but understood in the dream, but let's carry on) The advisory comm suggested the man do something, I forgot what, perhaps to check-out of that hospital or to apologize to the doc-in-question, so he could agree to help the sick guy.
Then I wheeled the sick man out to the room to seek for the doctor. (We passed him while we were entering the computer room, and he turned out to be a young and handsome doctor).
But when the two men met eyes the sick man decided he could not bring himself to do what the advisory comm suggested. He knew the doc was the only person who could help him now, but he just couldn't face him, so he told the girl pushing him to wheel him back into the computer room again.
(Here the story continues in the third-person point of view. Don't ask me why, it just happened)
Then the doctor saw the girl (who looked like she's about eighteen or twenty something), and stunned. Because she looked exactly like the woman he used to love, only the love fight was so many years ago and the woman was already dead.
The scene changes to a room in the hospital with the girl leaning over a window from the corridor outside, to look at the man laying on the bed, the doctor standing at the side of the bed. Apparently, the doctor had volunteered to cure the love rival, because he fell in love with the girl, who resembled his lover so much.
And the girl called out to the man laying on the bed: "father"
I know there's a catch in the story: I mentioned a YOUNG AND HANDSOME DOCTOR, AND A EIGHTEEN YEAR OLD GIRL. But the doctor was the very same person who fought over the girl's mother with the girl's father. The age difference doesn't make sense. And it seems crazy to think the young doctor fell in love with the daughter of his previous love. But anyway, a dream is a dream, they are not logical.
Anyway, the doctor didn't show his feelings for the daughter, the part about him liking her was not shown nor explained, but I just understood it. Don't ask me why, things like this happen in dreams.
So the story continues with the daughter staying in the hospital to look after her father. But she can't cook. So the next scene she was cutting pineapple slabs and having real difficulty (which is not seen, but understood). And the doctor was hovering around in the kitchen mocking and insulting her cooking skills. (Yes, it's still in the hospital and the doctor was still wearing his lab coat. And expect all food appearing in the dream to be pineapples, coming in the form of slabs)
So I struggled with the pineapple (yes, I became the girl again), though I appeared to cut it into perfect dices, I was supposed to struggle with it. Again, it's understood, but not shown. Then I gave up trying to cook (in this case it was cutting pineapples).
And the doctor, after mocking, gave me…. another slab of pineapple.
He identified the supposedly week-old pineapple slab to be the very same piece I prepared for my mother when I was five years old. (In dreams five-years-old to eighteen-years-old took only a week, hence the funny age gap) And he asked me to taste it. (In dreams food don't rot and even if they do, people won't get sick eating it) so I did.
It tasted like ordinary pineapple, but it was supposed to taste like rotten sandwiches. So I made a face.
The doctor explained that though it tasted bad, my mother had ate what I presented her with a smiling face.
I infer he's trying to tell me my father will gladly do the same, but I really needed to improve on my cooking.
And the dream ended there.
So I spent so much time repeating carp over and over.
Sunday, July 19, 2009\\Recovering... hell i feel sick
38.0 38.9 39.7 38.0 38.1 37.7 37.1 finally, 36.6
normal body temperature range... but...
WOAH CAN SOMEONE STOP SHAKING MY HEAD AROUND??? and seems like my heartbeat's going at i dunno how many beats per second even though i'm lying very still in bed, and try to control my breaths.
AND THAT COUGH! if i continue on for three days like that i'm going to have abs.
first it's the deodorant. i've suffered like, three to four mistakes... until now i've finally learnt that going with the crowd is the best. i'm not an adidas fan... but they sure have good deos... so... those who have the same deo and feel as if they are being copied, please forgive the noob. anyway adidas mass produce their deo to let everyone buy it isn't it?
then it's chocolates. i knew it. step into the supermarket and one or two bucks are sure to disappear from my wallet. every moment i stepped into the ntuc i was regretting it. every glance i casted at the shelves i was regretting it. the times when i was reaching out fot the chocolates i was regretting it.. already. then i paid, walking out of the supermarket full of regret. yet i won't stop. not for anything in the world. all in the name of greed. gawd... i need a counsellor.
now it's earphones. all i needed was one blasting-good, average earphone. yet i came back with two, and an empty wallet. one that was the previous one with the ok-ok sounds but damn short life. the other was the equally sub-standard headphone. that's bound to rust anytime. now i'm penniless i have to borrow from my sister.
these are goofy moments of BIG BANG! fan made, but great!
this performance by 2NE1 was quite disappointing... but well, their dance is still HOT!
this is better... but CL seems fatter then... mabybe she slimmed down after that...
this is their intro and debut stage (live!), and minzi(the short haired girl who came up first) is soooooooo hot! note that at the time of their debut she's only fifteen!!! now then i realise dara and sandara park are the same person, and park bom is NOT sandara park, though she was featured in a lot of big bangs mvs... hmm...
my cid is hope less... i'm not going to change anything about it until... say, tomorrow. i should visit the library and borrow some books...
first, i skipped school today. well, not that "pai" version... but we've got an SAP seminar in nanyang girls high, and i stayed there until like... 5?
i screwed the presentation. that i wish not to talk about...
and secondly... i find that a lot of girls find yeejia attractive. in the guy way. they even took pictures with her like she's ah meng... poor yee jia.. or is it otherwise?
after the semnar we went for a dinner at KAP with the facils and yeah. how can i phrase it? it's quite fun... though a bit sian 'cause we talk halfway then got this two church people come advertising for a talk about teenager suicide cases. i was interested. but they hovered, and hovered, and hovered, and hovered. i know they knew some of the facils la... but it's like dunno, being hovered-at?
and when i reach home at about 8.40, guess what i saw? a computer finally in my bedroom... i'm so happy i wanted to blog a picture of it.. neat table + computer = wooh! but too bad, i can't find my handphone-camputer connector or whatever you call that.
and there are set-backs though... connection is damn low i dunno why, and it's just... slow. good for me. i always open a lot of tabs but end up closing them before i read them. now i'm forced to read one by one SLOWLY...
Monday, July 13, 2009\\Jeremy Beadle's 20 Barmy Questions
at first when i read these questions, i thought they were really idiotic. then i flipped to the next page, then i was awed.
(for people who don't know this is yet another list from the infamous "the book of lists")
and here are the questions: 1. what colour are the breasts of blue tits? 2. to which planet do Abbott & Costello travel in Abbott & Costello Go To Mars? 3. how long does morning last on the moon? 4. the Caspian Sea is the world largest what? 5. built on the first level of Eiffel Tower, where would you go to have a meal in Le Resataurant de la Tour Eiffel? 6. in England, what day followed September 2 in 1752? 7. How far down a flagpole should a flag be if it's flying at half-mast? 8. where does Juliet stand during the famous balcony scene of Romeo and Juliet? 9. what religion was Britain's only Jewish prime minister? 10. that type of creature was Buffalo Bill famous for killing? 11. is the Upper Nile north, south, east or west of the Lower Nile? 12. it was predicted Henry IV would die in Jerusalem and he did. in which town did he die? 13. in the 1948 London Olympics, what stroke was used by the first seven finishers in the 200-m breaststroke final? 14. at the time of writing, the world's population is estimated at 6,222,336,610. approximately how many of them live on the surface of the earth? 15. who wrote The Autobiography of Malcom X? 16. in which city were The Plymouth Brethen founded? 17. what was the name of the character played by Clint Eastwood in the 1973 film The Man With No Name? 18. on what side of the moon is the Eastern Sea? 19. The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy is a trilogy of how many parts? 20. including Queen Elizabeth II, how many Queen Elizabeths of England have there been?
Barmy? NOT SO! look at the answers below: 1. Yellow (go wiki it, it's a blue bird with a yellow breast) 2. Venus (well... it's a comedy...) 3. a week 4. Lake (woah, people who are geog gods, explain why it's called a "sea") 5. New Orleans, Louisianna. The dismantled restaurant was originally on the first level of the Tower from 1937 to 1981. (and i was there thinking: "first floor of the tower lah!") 6. September 14 1752 - it adopted the Gregorian calendar. 7. on the distance equal to its depth, i.e. the top edge is placed where the bottom edge should rest 8. on a floor beside an upper window. there is no mention of a balcony (who was the idiot who started the idea of a "balcony scene" in the first place? to let audience look at juliet better?) 9. Christian, Benjamin Disraeli was baptised into the Church of England at the age of 12 10. Bison - buffalo are found in Africa and India (since when bison=buffalo... but come to think of it... there wasn't any lions in Singapore either) 11. South - it's higher, more elevated, hence it's name (really?!) 12. London. he died in the Jerusalem Chapel in Westminister Abbey 1413. (of all things...) 13. butterfly (i took five seconds to know that the heck this answer is about...) 14. exactly none. the actual surface of the earth, as defined by astronomers, is the outer edge of the atmosphere, about 100 miles above our heads. 15. alex haley 16. Dublin, about 1827, by the reverend john darby. 17. Joe 18. West, owing to a policy decision by the International Atronomical Union reversing lunar east and weat, the Eastern Sea is now on the weatern limb of the moon 19. five 20. five: Edward IV's consort, Henry VII's consort, Queen Elizabeth I, George VI's consort and Queen Elizabeth II
interesting huh? at least that's how i found it...
